little erin's Journal

9:28AM - i dont know if anyone still reads this thing

okay so i donno if yall still read this or even have time these days to get on the internet...cuz i sure as hell dont. but my class got cancelled so im free for the rest of the day!!! yee haw!!! YES I STILL LIVE IN TEXAS UNLIKE LISA AND MELISSA!!! anyways....so yea i moved into my sorority house and it was absolutely greeeeat for a while. I live with my best friend up here, Ashley, which might not have been the smartest idea. Its not that we dont get along but we just dont hang out like we used to..oh well hopefully things will get better. I just miss her and shes in the same room as me. but yea ive made a lot of new friends this year. Like in my sorority and outside of it. I'm a rush helper for one of the fraternities on campus so i hang out with the other rush helpers and yea it's a lot of fun.. THey are nothing compared to my best friends melissa, katie, and lisa of course, but for now they will do. I cannot wait to see you guys....even though like no one is comiang home for thanksgiving....what will i do??? okay so heres the guy thing. Chad and i finally went our separate ways. I have a new boyfriend and yes chad has a new girlfriend. But he is soo different. you guys would not even know what happened to him.. its crazy but yea...so my boy...lol....his name is jon, everybody pretty much knows about him. yea he goes to school with me so that makes it sooo much easier....he's really sweet and were not too serious so it doesnt freak me out...good for that cuz im not ready for another serious relationship quite yet. my parents came to visit me this weekend cuz it was parents day for my sorority. and they got to meet jon, i think they really liked him, and my bro liked him so that was really good...i was afraid he would be like your not chad and not want anything to do with him. but he was really nice. in other news, since me and chad broke up ive been trying to fix allthe friendships i messed up by spending all my time with him. Starting with Aaron Oliver. we used to be sooo close but chad did nt like me hanging out with him so i stopped. but we've been talking alot lately and im going to see him this weekend. he goes to unt so im going to dallas for the weekend. im bringing my friend torie with me cuz she's from mesquite (dallas area). so im really excited about that. and then hopefully i wll get to visit katie next week too....we'll see...well school wise i guess lifes goin okay. i changed my major and now im an elementary ed major. i want to teach like 2nd or 3rd grade. right now i have to go to lab school for one of my classes. its really neat i get to teach the kids the alphabet and things like that. its like a small piece of what i will have to do when im really a teacher....k well thats all for now its lunch time....have a great day!!!!!

6:15PM - yay for good moods!!

okay so yea really good weekend..i went and saw jon....yay for that....so yea that is going really well. lisa looked so pretty and grown up in her wedding dress...yay for her....i dont really have anything to say so yea i just thought i would wrtie her i have no idea why...k bye guys...

1:28PM

k im bored so im took some quizzes here ya go guys...

Your Kissing Purity Score: 29% Pure

You're not one to kiss and tell... But word is, you kiss pretty well.

Your Birthdate: September 30

Your birthday on the 30th day of the month shows individual self-expression is necessary for your happiness. You tend to have a good way of expressing yourself with words, certainly in a manner that is clear and understandable. You have a good chance of success in fields requiring skill with words. You can be very dramatic in your presentation and you may be a good actor or a natural mimic. You have a vivid imagination that can assist you in becoming a good writer or story-teller. Strong in your opinions, you always tend to think you are on the right side of an issue. There may be a tendency to scatter your energies and have a lot of loose ends in your work. You may have significant artistic talent and be very creative.

You Are 15 Years Old

15 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

well that explains the chad thing...lol

Your Daddy Is Bill o'Reilly

What You Call Him: Daddy Dearest Why You Love Him: He takes you to Disneyland

yay i love disney!!!!


k well thats all the quizzes for now...

so i got two parking tickets in 2 days, at the same time, same cop, but different places...how unbelievable gay is that....so im writing a paper about how useless they are on our campus....they give tickets all day but it takes them weeks to report like stolen bikes....grrr. they make me angry....anyways

so me and chad are officially broken up. but its okay im totally fine....but i dont know if he is or not. he thinks that i will realize how much i love him and come crawling back...which in the end may happen but its frustrating that hes just sitting around waiting for me to do that....but yea so im going to see jon this weekend....i know it seems like me and chad just broke up and im already over it, but i liked both at the same time, and i was trying to figure out what was better for me....well i decided i needed change to decide if chad was what i really wanted...and i really ...like jon...so yea if anyone's gonna be in dallas this weekend gimme a call ill be there.....well have a great day

7:11PM

k so i definitley havent updated in like a year...so yea heres my life since well i started college....jk...you guys already know pretty much everything...so im back in nacogdoches at the moment. im taking summer school and took a test today and pretty sure i got an A!!! wow so yea im living in my sorority house and its so fun...its like a big slumber party all the time...we have pajama parties and pillow fights everyday....ummm not really...its not really much differne then the dorms. except all my neighbors are my good friends so yay for that. im still dating chad...but yea...well yall know...and if not you will know when i come home...it will be quite obvious...anyways....i also have a "new interest"....yay....so i went to dallas last weekend....it was fun....for the most part. and this weekend the rest of my sisters are coming up here so that will be really fun. i really miss my friends from high school - my melissa katie and lisa, those are the only people who will read this lol....so yea i miss you guys....i cant wait to see everyone. so yea my life isnt that interesting....i may have more to say later but i cant write it here yet so ask me when i come home....see you guys soon!!!!! love you

6:07PM

11:50AM - happy 5th of july!!!

so yesterday was the 4th of july....it was pretty fun. i went to the lake with my family around 10:30. that was lots of fun. yes i had lots of fun with my family. my parents and i just joked around the whole time. but yea i had a blast. then i left around 5 to go home cuz i was goin to ryan's house for the night..yes chad's brother. chad is in georgia with his mom and grandparents visiting his dad so he was gone. he was mad at first that i was goin to his house but he eventually got over it. derek, vanessa, some katie and joe people, ryan, and melissa and me were there. it was actually pretty fun. we just hung out for a while and then ate hotdogs. then as we were about to get in the pool chad calls and wants to talk cuz he was bored. well i was kinda about to go swimming and he didnt understand why i didnt wanna talk to him. so finally we hung up and i left him being all pissed at me. so i swam for like a half hour then realized that everyone was hanging on their bf/gf and i was bored. ryan was shooting off fireworks and we were just sitting there talking. so yea i realized that i should go cuz i was falling asleep and i wanted to call chad. so i left and called chad like 5 times and he didnt answer. i thought he was avoididng me so i was all upset. but he finally called me back and said he was sleeping. so yea things are fine now. well yea that was pretty much my 4th of july....hope yours was great!!!

1:58PM

haha i love my melissa!!!!

so i never update this thing. i never really think about it. but right now im bored off my mind so im writing in it. so not much has gone on lately. ive been working a bunch and hanging out with chad and other friends. right now chad is on his way to savannah, Georgia with his mom and grandparents to visit his dad. at first i was somewhat excited cuz i thought i needed some space. and i figured a week without him would do the trick. yea well it wasnt until he left did realize that i dont need a break from him. im gonna be so sad without him next year. i never thought i would be the person so attatched to a guy. i love that kid more than anything. katie thanks for all the advice you have given me over the past year about him. its helped alot. i love ya!!!!!so the other day me and melissa went shopping. that was lots of fun. i really miss hanging out with her. well thats gonna change..i need to hang out with her lots more..and katie and lisa too...i wannna go to san antonio...lol...k well i think ill make some ramen now...bye guys

8:35PM

How to make a Erin

Ingredients: 3 parts intelligence 1 part silliness 5 parts instinct

Method: Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Add a little lovability if desired!

11:18PM - grrrrr

boys are stupid why do we keep them around......oh yea cuz we love them oh so much.....but still...grrrrrr....for those who care to be informed of my random post i will prob. write about it later if not call me and i will be happy to explain it to you....i miss katie and lisa....come home....now!lol....corpus in 38 days wooo hooo

12:43PM - AHH LIFE IS GREAT!!!!!!!1

This weekend was sooooo great. friday me and melissa went to go pick up katie. The three of us spent some well needed quality time together. it was soo nice. i miss them so much. even though melissa's still here shes not at my school and we dont hang out like we used to in the old days. im not saying this to complain cuz im usually the one who cant do anything but its just different. it was great to go back to the old days again. then saturday i studied for my sats unitl like 3 then i took a shower and actually got dressed. lol. chad, his parents and brother came and picked me up at like 430 and we went to fuddruckers and dave and busters for a while. it was really fun. chads mom actually likes me a lot now. she came up to me and was like at first i didnt like the fact that chad was dating a girl older then him but now that he is...im glad its you. that like made my night for two reasons. 1)she doesnt think im a ho and actually likes me. 2)chad even told his mom that we were going out so i guess we are. yay for that. but anyways. after that we went back to my house and hng out in the computer room with my bro. we layed on the bed in there for a while just talking and stuff. it was cute. then my mom called and i talked to her for a while (still like laying underneath chad lol) then she was like how was ur night did u guys have fun and i was like yea and she goes good i hope you too last for a while you seem so happy with him. it was nice to hear that from my mom cuz it seems like my parents have been against me and chad from the start. then melissa and katie came over and they highlighted katies hair. me and chad jus tlayed in my bed and watched lizzie mcguire. oh how i love that movie. it soo good. everytime i watch it it makes me thnk of chad cuz i saw it with him and weve watched it at my house the 3 other times. but yea. i really like him a lot. you could even say i love him. oh wait i do. i dont usually like guys like i like him. i donno its reall cool tho, but kinda scary at the same time. i mean i wonder what will happen next year when i leave for college. is he still gonna want to date me. hmm i guess i will just have to wait and see. but for now im soooo happy with my life and love everypart of it. life is great. not having band is even better.

10:13PM - its been a while

hey guys!!!!!!! i realized that i dont get to talk to you guys much anymore and a few of you might wanna know whats going on im my life. maybe you dont but if you dont stop reading....now. lol anyways. so yea i went through summer band for the last time (at klein) this summer. it was hot as hell but i survived as always. our show was actually really good this year. marching was fun too. i really liked our show. im glad too cuz its the last one i will do. thats sad in a way but also soooo soooo happy. so we went to uil and got all ones. no big surprise there we usually do. but instead of going to boa...we went to a contest in dallas sorry i cant remember the name of it. but we made 4th in prelims. which is awesome considering out of a crap load of band they only took 11 (there was a mess up in the scoring so they took 11 instead of 10)but then we all got all physed up and got 5th in finals. yay!!!!!! we are actually good once again. im so glad i was here to witness and partake in that. tomorrow is the homecoming game also the end of marching tear tear...or is it WOO HOOO!!! i think its a little bit of both. im really sad about leaving for college but at the same time soo excited. im really gonna miss a lot of my friends here. i dont know how i can get along without seeing kellys smiling happy face everyday. i have gotten to be so close with that girl and i absolutely love her. oh and chad. it makes me really sad that i find a guy like him and i have to leave him here. so we are basically going out now. no he never grew the balls to actually ask me but its kinda understood. but i like him soo much and i love the way things are with us right now. homecoming is on saturday and ive never been so excited about it in all 3 years i went. im soo ready. im wearing melissas prom dress so i will be pretty haha. its kinda big in the boobs but hey ill live. lol. but yea so i applied to sfa a couple of weeks ago and am anxiously awaiting their reply. i will let all of you know as soon as i find out. i am also applying to southwest, and north texas. hopefully i get into sfa and have fun there. i want to room with vanessa magri i think u all know who that is. she want to go there too so i think were gonna room together. well at least thats what i thought. then the other night my parents started yelin at me about college and i told them my roommate plans and they flat out said no to it. but hey its not their decision, right?? but they dont want me coming home until xmas cuz they think the only reason im comin is to see chad. they told me that relationships like that never work. i should jsut break up with him now to save myself the pain at the end of the year. what the crap is that. that pisses me off to no end. grrrrrrr. so i order grad. invitations next week dont worry u will all get one. k well i gotta sleep now but ill keep u posted about hc and other events..alicia - are u still coming b4 hc to say hi

12:32AM

well i had an interesting conversation with derek tonitel. i miss him...read it if you please

littleerin2004: so you still wanna do something someday
littleerin2004: soon
player d17: if you want to
littleerin2004: yea i do
player d17: what do you want to do
littleerin2004: it doesnt matter
player d17: there has to be something
littleerin2004: im sure there is
player d17: think of something
littleerin2004: no u
player d17: why me
littleerin2004: cuz i love you
littleerin2004: i donno
player d17: it doesn't matter
player d17: as long as we are ALONE
littleerin2004: what is that supposed to mean
player d17: you tell me
littleerin2004: u said it not me
player d17: what would you like it to mean
littleerin2004: i donno u said it not me
player d17: why does that make you uncomfortable
littleerin2004: cuz u have a gf and its not like that anymore
littleerin2004: its nto like weve talked all summmer or anything so why should everythng go back to how it wa
littleerin2004: s
player d17: damn.
player d17: are you mad at me
littleerin2004: no im seriously not i just dont want u to think things are exactoy the same
player d17: okay
player d17: what do you mean by the same
littleerin2004: honestly you mean a lot to me and i would be sad if we still couldnt flirt like we always do but i used to be able to talk to you about stuff but now u never call me back or answer your own phone and i miss you
littleerin2004: so yea
player d17: well i miss you to.
player d17: that's kind of how i felt about you and chad
littleerin2004: you have a funny way of showing it
littleerin2004: what do you mean
player d17: when you liked chad i got out of the habit of fliriting with you because i didn't want to piss him off or ruin things with you. i still care about you and still want us to be able to do the normal things we used to do
littleerin2004: well me too
littleerin2004: and well im pretty sure chad doesnt like me anymore so dont worry
littleerin2004: that kinda makes me sad though
littleerin2004: l*63+
littleerin2004: 363
littleerin2004: ahh damn computer
player d17: what was that last part
littleerin2004: nothing just my computer
littleerin2004: srewing up
littleerin2004: lol
player d17: do you really miss me
littleerin2004: yup
player d17: how
littleerin2004: what do ya mean
player d17: what about me do you miss
littleerin2004: actually talking to you
player d17: lol
player d17: anything else
littleerin2004: i donno i just miss like seeing you like everyday and jsut messin around with you and just knowing that it wont happen anymore cuz you dont go to my school anymore makes me sooo sad
player d17: like me hitting you on the ass and you talking about my b-day presetn
player d17: *present
littleerin2004: yup
player d17: i thought you didn't like it when i hit you on the ass
player d17: and god knows when i'll get my present. :-D
littleerin2004: hahaha
player d17: what's so funny i'm serious
player d17: r u okay
littleerin2004: yea why
player d17: lets go swiming or something. we can also talk.
littleerin2004: okay
player d17: what are your regrets about all of or relationships
player d17: *our
littleerin2004: i really dont wanna talk about this okay
player d17: what's wrong
littleerin2004: nothing i just dont wanna talk about that okay
player d17: okay

3:29PM - hello all.....

so i dont update this thing very much. whenever im home to be on the computer im not in the mood to type oh well. anyways lets see whats new in my life. not much. well me and melissa got a bellydancing video. wow thats a lot harder then it looks. by the way melissa...i want it back. yea so me and melissa called chad the other dayl he never talks to us anymore. i think he has a secret life...either that or he just completely ditched us. lol. it kinda makes me sad though....tear tear...yea so me and beca have been hanging out alot lately. its been lots of fun. oh today i got my yearbook pix taken. oh that was fun yea so thats all for now gotta go to work

12:08PM - hmm...it makes ya think doesnt it

okay so last night i had a dream that made me really sad. so it was about chickfila and chickfila people and then chad. so chad worked there but we didnt really talk much. but it was like 730 at night and there were like no customers or anything. and it was brandons last night working there. (this is true cuz this is brandons last week) well we were having a going away party for him cuz we all love him so much. it was lots of fun we were all just like hanging round behind the counter dancing and eating free food. then i was like oh i need my camera so i ran to the back to get a camera out of my locker. well the thing i picked up that was supposedly a camera was a roll. hmm. so i was trying to take a pic and i couldnt see anything. so i tore a hole in the roll. i was gonna take a pic of brandon and a bunch of other people. so i looked through my "camera" but when i looked through all i could see was brandon. there was a spotlight on him and that armagedon song came on. so i took the "camera" away from my eye and that was still the only person i could see. then he ran towards me and gave me a huge hug. then i woke up. hmmm what does that mean???? i donno im gonna miss him soooo much. cuz its not like jamie where i can just be like hey lets go to walmart and see him again. brandons going to las vegas for like 2 weeks then moving to louisiana for school. i am beyond sad about this and i dont work with him except for one day before hes done with chickfila forever. ahhhh i love that guy!! he always makes me so happy and says the nicest things about me..but i guess life goes on. he will come back next year cuz hes going to A&M maybe katie will see him...ok im done now with that at least.

so me and melissa were supposed to go to galveston today..just for something to do. but its raining so were just gonna belly dance. we got the videos from target the other day so now i can be shakira.woo hoo!!!

7:13PM - fourth of July!!!!!!!

so this has been a long fourth of july. it started at about 9 yesterday morning. so me, beca, and melissa went to go visit ashley dixion in the hospital(shes not sick or anything like that so dont freak out) shes in ther for a weight loss thing cuz of her kidney transplant. yea so we got there just fine no wrong turns or anything. so we all hung out with ash for like 3 hours. it was her birtday and im really glad we got to go see her. i think it made her really happy. i love that girl to death...her kelly and beca are gonna be like my bestest friends next year...i gotta find people to replace lisa, melissa, and katie!! hahah u guys will always be my best friends ever though...dont worry..ur irreplacable..hahah anyways back to the fourth. so beca had to be at work at 3 so we left the hospital at like 1:45. me and beca fell asleep in the car for like 20 minutes...BAD IDEA!!!! so we wake up and i look at melissa and these were the words she said, "ummm i think were lost" apparently she took I-10 instead of I-45. hahaha who knew..so the shortened version of this story is that it took us about 3 1/2 hours to get to chickfila. so beca was more then an hour late. so we get to chickfila and i had to pee worse then i have ever had to pee before. so i ran in to go to the bathroom. theni looked around and didnt see anybody worth staying to talk to so me and melissa went to her house to eat cuz we were SOO HUNGRY!!! we ate some steak and then hung out with her sister for a while. then we went to my house to eat again..mmm mmm good. yea so then we hung out in my room for a while. i danced for melissa while we talked to chad on the phone...yes thats right talked to chad..lol. LOOK MELISSA, IM THE FIFTH WHEEL!!! hahaha good times good times!!! then we went to go see katie and jason in the boonies..we watched them shoot fireworks off for a while. katie wants melissa to date jasons friend mike.....but katie what about me..(his bro was pretty hott)haha. so then we went to coreys house and watched them try and blow their neighbors up..that was.....HILARIOUS!!! yea so then i went home and DIDNT SLEEP!!! i talked to people online for a while then read klein forums till about 4. haha all in all it was a good fourth of july. have a nice weekend...i will probobly see a lot of you guys!! mwuaa love ya

8:21PM - wow its been a while

so let me just fill you all in on my life. i know i dont update much but my life just gets busier every day. So two weeks before school started i was in summer band as most of you people know. well i hadnt really seen a lot of those people much this summer so it was good to get back in the swing of thing. but as happy as i was to see all those people i realized how many people werent there (my graduated friends). but on the bright side i got to hang otu with chad again and that was really nice. its like everything is like it was last year with him but better....much much better. but i donno how far that would go. but last night i asked him what happened with his last girlfriend that makes him scared to have another one. he told me it wasnt the type of thing you say online so im waiting for him to call me back cuz he went to church then i will know..dont worry who ever i said i would tell what happens you should be expecting a call tonite. its wierd cuz i really like him and the fact that hes only a sophmore doesnt even matter anymore. in other news.......marching is getting better we started learning drill today. that mandy flute girl (soph, i call her mom) is really annoying she thinks she knows everything ahhh9i cant stand her. oh yea chad and aaron got spots.. im soooo proud.hahah. okay so last night i went to ihop with what i thought was gonna just be derek...haha thats funny cuz thats no where near what happened. so i get there (we met up there) and his cousin was with him which was cool, i didnt really care. then black shawn called and said he would be there in a little while. that didnt bother me either. derek told me that he was bringing lee too so that was cool. but when shawn got there lee wasnt with him but gues who was.........VANESSA!! what the hell is with that. and then derek goes "shawn i thought you were bringing lee" in a very fake way. so needless to say i was pissed. so then we ate and it wasnt too bad. then this morning beca was talking to his bro and she asked him if it was planned and he said yes and they apll went back to dereks and laughed about it. so i hate him now. i sent him a tm that read "just to let you know, i hate you now. did you really think i would buy that? i would rather be friends with vanessa then keep being friends with you. yay for being mean. oh and last of all i go to sonic everyday now b4 marching (it starts at 330) and i see mike there (yes katie your bro)well thats all for now ill keep you guys updated k wuv you all....well most of you anyway....dotn worry ill be back. thats right DOTN worry not DONT worry you heard right

10:39PM - this is for you katie!!!

okay so katie says i should update more so here goes....but the reason i dont update very much is cuz i dont think anybody really cares about whats going on in my life..and if they do they already know but for those who dont know here ya go. well before ileft for the bahamas i was getting really close with ryan again. at the time i thought this was a good thing. well then i went to the bahamas. well that was lots of fun. i was sick for some of it but it still was fun. well i got back and was sick and not able to go anywhere for like 3 days. melissa and lisa came to visit me one night after ihop (which i couldnt go to). the next day was my first day of summer school. (hla) its so great. i do absolutely nothing and get a's. it rox!!! yea so i get out at 1 so i still have like my whole day. so on the way home from school i stop at randalls to go get a drink. well i came out and my car wouldnt start so my mommy came and picked me up. so i didnt have a car. then ryan called me and asked me to come over cuz i hadnt seen him since i got back. i came to pick me up cuz i didnt have a car. we talked to my mom for like 15 and then left. my mom really likes him and so does my brother so i thought he was a good choice of guys for me. yea so we go to his house and watched lion king. we were in his room layin on his bed watching movies for like 3 and a half hours. well i have decided i am uncapable of kissing him. everytime he tries to kiss me i automatically turn away. whats with that. beca says i have snogging withdrawl and just dont know what to do. this could be true but back to my story. so i didnt ever kiss him but it didnt seem to bother him like at all cuz we were still all cuddling and stuff. so then i had to go to work so he took me home. he was like ok im gonna come visit you at work cuz i have to see you again before tomorrow. awww how sweet (so i thought) so at like 9:00 (i got off at 9:30) him and ashton came. i was like hey stay until 9:30 cuz thats when i get off. he was like ok and went and sat down. well like 10 minutes later this girl caitlin currer comes in. ok so ive been friends with her since like first grade. i was like hey what are you doing here. she was like oh, ryan called me and told me to meet him up here. it didnt bother me cuz they work together and i thought ryan liked me a lot. well i got off and ryan, ashton and caitlin were all outside. well i walked out and ryan was like ok time to go. so they all left and then i went inside to eat with my best buddy travis. haha. yea so then i went home and my mom told me i needed to go get this ladys key out of my car (it was at randalls) so i drove up there and on the way i saw ryan and ashton and caitlin and their friend andrew all in ryans car driving. well they ended up going to randalls like me. so i got out of my car and ashton like ran and gave me a hug. ryan like completely ignored me and didnt even get out of the car. so ashton and andrew got out of the car and ryan was like hey im gonna go take caitlin home ill brb. so he left and me and ashton and andrew talked for a while. well ryan came back and was like im going home...NOW...see u guys later and sped off all pissed off. i was like hey whats wrong with him. and andrew was like oh, hes mad cuz caitlin doesnt like him and he really likes her!!!!!. ahhh i was so mad. so i got in my moms car and drove home. well i saw him in randalls the other day and said hi but thats about all since i went to his house on thursday. so i think i should stay away from ryan\. what do u think? but the thing is, im always so happy when im around him. there is only one other guy that makes me feel like that......chad. hmmm what does that mean....honestly,i dont know. i thought i was over him but now i dont know. so many things are going wrong in my life right now, but are they really that bad or are they all happening to teach me a lesson. like ryan. and my mom and dad yelling at me about college. but i think that finally clicked. i plan on lookinfg at colleges online this week. but it all goes back to melissas saying: "everything happens for a reason" i think those are the most benifical words anyone has ever said to me. thanks a lot meli!!! ok bed time ill finish my life story tomorrow

4:38PM - its been a while and so much has happened

omg it seems like forever since i updated this thing. ok so lets start from the beginning. i dont really know where i left off so i will just start. at the end of the school year i was conditionally ungrounded. whatever that means. basically i could go out but only if i was getting my school work done. yea so i was allowed to go to ape. everybody else went to prom too but i think ape was fin. Most people had a good time at prom except alicia....awww. yea so all of that time i still liked chad. nobody thought that would ever change. yea so basically i just gave up. i now consider him as my best (guy) friend. i think thats a good thing. but i have a feeling it will all change during marching season...once again. stupid band. yea so the last day of school i went to hassler to read to little kids. well guess who was there....ryan....that was odd. not really though. it was lots of fun. i drove him and we flirted again. it was kinda cool. then i went to my bros graduation. B-O-R-I-N-G!!!!!! then when i was leaving he called me and asked me to bring him his phone cuz he left it in my car. so i did. that was at like 2:30. i left at 5:20. im glad he got his phone. lol. but for u people with dirty minds...we just watched a movie..hahha. yea so now we talk again and hang out a lot. he came over the other night to meet my parents(once again). and we went to dennys last night. i know alicia says its not a good idea but hey i dont care. so thats basically it besides:


BAHAMAS IN 2 DAYS BABY!!!!!!

9:18PM - GROUNDED FOR LIFE!!!!!

well friday night was officially the worst day of my life no exageration whatsoever. my dad got my report card and lets just say it didnt go to well. my phone bill for textmessaging was like $43 more than its suppposed to be so my parents wanted to know when i sent/recieved all of these messages. so of course i had to tell them...school. so now they are getting a printout of the times and what the message said of everysingle text message i have sent/recieved in the past month. that freaking sux!!!!!!!!!! liek the oh so nice conversation i had with jennifer patts.... and the somewhat personal conversation i had with robbie last weekend. that is so not good. also they cancelled my aim sn. and my jetski is no longer my jetski (sorry katie) but my dad says i might get it back eventually. oh but thats not it. if my grades arent good at progress reports....my car gets sold, i cant go to band banquet, cant go to prom, cant go to buzzfest, cant go to graduation...and also may not be going to klein....or repeating the 11th grade im gonna kill my dad if he makes me do that. i will go live with melissa and go to tomball high school. and go to the cool park everyday. but on a lighter note....i went shopping for a prom/banquet dress today. i dont know if i can go to either one of them but if i can my dad says im gonna need a dress so why argue. a but i found a pretty blue one. its strapless and pretty plain but i like it. my mom is going with me on thursday to go get it. but then we are going shopping sat afternoon at the woodlands mall to see if there is anything else i like. but i still dont know if chad is going to prom so hey meli, it would be nice if you asked him!!! hahahah jk. ok oh and i dont think i really like robbie anymore. maybe its just the fact that im pretty sure he doesnt like me anymore but i donno. katie seems to think he does but i donno. but ists ok hes a really good friend. im glad hes such a cool guy.. alot of guys if you told them you liked them would freak out and never talk tto you again but he was really cool about it. and hey i might graduate with him (bastard dad) hahaha ok bed time for erin i have refused to sleep/eat for the past 2 days to piss my parents off but they are out of town now so its time to catch up

9:25PM - i wonder why?

alright so today was not he best of all days. the other day i was talking to robbie over text messaging and i was asking him if he was going to band banquet. he was like probobly not. i asked him why and he said he just didnt really wanna go. i donno if he thought if he said he was going i was gonna ask him to go with me or something but he basically just flat out lied to me. katie if you tell him this ill kill you . anyways. beca and him are in the same abs house for church and she was asking him who the other girl was. well after much persuading on her part he finally told her who it was. ALLY ARMSTRONG!! ok i know most of you guys that read these things know her but please dont say anything to her. its very important that you do this. lol. yea so robbie was telling beca (before he told her who it was) that she would find out who it was at band banquet because he was taking her. grrr what a jerkface. that makes me so mad not cuz he is going with her just the fact he lied to me about even going. there was no need for him to lie its not like i was completely obsessed with him or anything. geez!! its not like a chad thing. oh speaking of chad....we actually had a real conversation the other night. most of you already know about this but for the few of you who dont, here goes.....Chad: why di dyou like me? Erin: im not really sure....probobly cuz most of the time you are a really sweet guy and a lot of fun to hang out with....but you never really did anything about it so does it still matter? chad: does what still matter? Erin: why i liked you or even the fact that i did. Chad: the reason i never asked you out was cause i didnt want to hurt you like i did my last girlfriend. Erin: what was that supposed to mean? Chad: the last girlfriend i had i really made her mad when i broke up with her. Erin: well thats gonna happen at least once in a persons life but what does that really have to do with me? Chad: i donno its just that if it didnt work out between us i still wanted to be good friends withyo like we are now. Erin: thats cool then, i still dont undersand you though but oh well. Chad: you will eventually undersand me. i think. yea so i guess there is a reason for all of chads crazyness. but i still wonder if hes never gonna have a girlfriend again because of something that happened in 7th or 8th grade. thats crazy but then again its chad...well tonite me and melissa went to go see my brothers P.E. show at school. it was really cute. there was this guy behind us that kept whistling so loud and high pitched ahhh it was loud. oh and the ladies who sang the star spangled banner were HILARIOUS!! hey meli: and the rockets red flaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaare and the bombs burting in aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaair. lol tomorrow in the band hall, wil be featuring erin mcmahon singing the star spangled banner....brace yourself...ya anyways... we say jj there (whitney moore's x-bf) i love tha kid hes the coolest. yea so thats basically it bye